After our parents died, I decided to do everything to make sure my brother and I would stay together. The wish... it was our last chance so we can be together, but also stay in the city with those two. [ ... ] So it doesn't matter now.
Jinnai isn't that bad of a guy. He's selfish, but... he was also trying to protect something that was important to him. In his eyes, I was intruding on that. If he pulled something like that a few weeks ago, I probably would have kicked the crap out of him.
[ he's not sure how to explain. all of the details leading up to what happened are a mess, and he isn't sure how to detangle it for himself, much less another person
so he just shrugs. ]
It's... have you ever made a decision that sucks, but it's something you have to hold to?
[ She focuses her eyes on a spot on the wall. There's a faraway look to her eyes and a faraway note to her voice, as if recalling a memory that's not really hers. ]
She's the type to believe in someone no matter what once she decides to put her trust in you. She's the type that foolishly runs about, trying to turn any hopeless situation around and pulling everyone in their vicinity into it.
[ he doesn't know how true it is, since he doesn't know the person in question and most likely never will. but he does know that sometimes you do like someone more than they like you. ]
But you probably still made good memories together, right? Those weren't lies or anything.
Even if she might have acted the same with other Servants... anyone can say things like that. If you weren't around, maybe someone you're friends with would just be hanging out with someone else, or things like that... but that doesn't make what you did have any less important.
What's the point in worrying about it? Anyone of us could have done it. You were the biggest suspect at the end, yeah, but most of that was from last minute panic.
... and if even you did do it, that doesn't change that the rest of us could also get into that situation, too. We'll figure things out. There's a lot we don't know about what's going on, so... there might be some way to stop the transformations from happening.
[ and it turns out there is, with the antidote, but she's already dead by that point. ]
There's just no point in holding up pitchforks to you, no matter what actually happened. The killers are as stuck here as the rest of us. Even if they might be turning into monsters doesn't mean they are.
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We can only collect them in specific circumstances, and we don't know when those happen. So the time limit was until my brother had to leave the city.
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[ She's just wondering. ]
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After our parents died, I decided to do everything to make sure my brother and I would stay together. The wish... it was our last chance so we can be together, but also stay in the city with those two. [ ... ] So it doesn't matter now.
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[ Don't be so defeatist. ]
If you have a wish, there's a point.
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[ he sighs ]
Jinnai isn't that bad of a guy. He's selfish, but... he was also trying to protect something that was important to him. In his eyes, I was intruding on that. If he pulled something like that a few weeks ago, I probably would have kicked the crap out of him.
But I think now I'm just tired. And done.
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[ She thinks he's within his rights. Honestly, even if it's not, she thinks Toi should. ]
Why are you giving up?
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so he just shrugs. ]
It's... have you ever made a decision that sucks, but it's something you have to hold to?
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[ So.... her experiences may not relate.
Technically, it was another her, but it was still her. i hate fate/ ]
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... well, that's a power better kept away from humans, I think.
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[ ... ]
I did it for a human.
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A friend?
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[ She knows that any other Servant she found would've been treated the same way. ]
She found me when I thought I was left to die.
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he could ask about that specific instance, but. maybe not now. ]
What was she like?
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She's the type to believe in someone no matter what once she decides to put her trust in you. She's the type that foolishly runs about, trying to turn any hopeless situation around and pulling everyone in their vicinity into it.
[ ... ]
She's the type of person who would hold my hand.
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it's funny, how no matter where you go, there always seems to be someone who'd charge in and demand to be with you in some capacity. ]
She sounds... [ a lot of words come to mind, but he can't really settle on any of them ] nice.
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[ There's no heat to that, more barely hidden fluster than anything else. ]
In the end, I was just another Servant to her.
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[ he doesn't know how true it is, since he doesn't know the person in question and most likely never will. but he does know that sometimes you do like someone more than they like you. ]
But you probably still made good memories together, right? Those weren't lies or anything.
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[ Those memories are dazzling and radiant, and even if it wasn't truly here, they still touched her. ]
I refuse to let anyone call them sad memories.
[ She's never been one who had to have her feelings returned. That's never been the issue with her. ]
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Even if she might have acted the same with other Servants... anyone can say things like that. If you weren't around, maybe someone you're friends with would just be hanging out with someone else, or things like that... but that doesn't make what you did have any less important.
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Sit next to me.
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but he settles down easily enough. ]
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... A nonzero number of people thought I was the murderer tonight.
[ And yet he's still willing to sit down like that next to her. ]
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I know. Some might be mad.
[ ... ]
But this is alright.
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THE POINT IS, she could be (and was) the murderer, and he didn't hesitate. ]
Why?
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... and if even you did do it, that doesn't change that the rest of us could also get into that situation, too. We'll figure things out. There's a lot we don't know about what's going on, so... there might be some way to stop the transformations from happening.
[ and it turns out there is, with the antidote, but she's already dead by that point. ]
There's just no point in holding up pitchforks to you, no matter what actually happened. The killers are as stuck here as the rest of us. Even if they might be turning into monsters doesn't mean they are.
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