STAND BY ME ONEGAIIII (toi catchall)

[sadiskick]

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week 1, tuesday

[sadiskick]

[ Sad and mad aren't feelings that new to her, but existential exhaustion is. Being tired physically and being in pain are also new. For someone who can sleep but doesn't have to and for someone with a deteriorated sense of touch, it's an experience she's still trying to sort through.

Her ability to understand others has always been stunted at best due to her pride and due to her inability to feel warmth. Her brows are knit, a change from her usual cool demeanor. ]

... Toi. Are you going to kick it?

[ She's looking at the soccer ball he has with him.

She doesn't know how much he can withstand or push himself because feeling pain?? for a wound like this?? help?? ]

[soba]

I'm thinking about it.

[ he can kick it, but going after it is what might be the problem. walking is fine but too much sudden movement is definitely not. ]

Do you know how to play anything?

[ just, sports in general. he is not sure if she can do soccer considering her, uh. legs. ]

[sadiskick]

I can kick it back.

[ Her legs aren't that sharp, which is still annoying!! He can probably feel that. ]

I wasn't exactly in the environment to learn sports.

[ That's a no. Does dancing count? ]

[soba]

I used to play soccer when I was little.

[ he was going to say when he was a kid but like

a lot of people here still consider him a kid so never mind ]

FRANCY WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME I PUT THE WRONG WEEK UP TOP AAAAAAAA

[sadiskick]

[ Toi will always be baby. ]

Used to? Why did you stop?

I DIDNT EVEN NOTICE IM CRYING

[soba]

It just wasn't important anymore, compared to everything else.

[ he knows that's a vague statement. ]

My parents died when I was little, and chasing dreams of being a soccer player wasn't going to help us. So I quit.

[sadiskick]

[ Is this where she should provide comfort? She's not sure. She doesn't know how, and she isn't sure if he wants it, even if she wanted to give it.

What she does know and think is that... ]

That's practical. [ The way to survive is the most important. ] Kick it to me.

[soba]

[ her reaction is more than fine. he needed comfort when they died; at this point, this is just life now.

but he nods and kicks the ball over. it's an easy pass, slow but with enough force to easily reach her. ]

Yeah, it worked out. But with all of this happening here, it's a good way to relax.

[sadiskick]

[ Her foot-eye coordination has always been good, and she stops the ball easily. It's kicking it back that's the problem. ]

Is there no way for you to pick it up later?

[ Since he's young.

She's graceful but forceful, perhaps too forceful, and the ball is heading straight at him at a speed that's not taking into consideration chest wounds. ]

[soba]

[ guess who is also not considering chest wounds?

the idiot whose instinct is to stop the ball with his chest, like he normally might



so instead he's just fuckin doubling over and hitting the ground ]

[sadiskick]

[ sadfksdjfa

She feels that, too, and doubles over, gasping because she's not used to this kind of pain. ]

You idiot...! Toi! You should have dodged!

[soba]

So... sorry!

[ SOMETIMES, REFLEXES ARE BAD,,, ]

At least you have a good kick...

[sadiskick]

[ Is he who should be saying sorry? She won't correct him.

She straightens, brushing off imaginary dirt like that will cover that she just indirectly caused herself funny. ]

If I didn't have a good kick, I'd be a disgrace to myself.

[soba]

You'd be surprised at how many people who can't.

[ but he will go to chase after the ball now ]

[sadiskick]

My sister wouldn't be able to kick it if her life depended on it.

[ ... ]

Don't push yourself.

[soba]

... I get impatient staying still for too long.

[ plus, if people see him around, then he might seem like a less obvious choice as a possible victim. not an easy kill, anyway. ]

[sadiskick]

[ She frowns. She understands that, but if he makes his wound worse, how is that going to help anything? ]

... As long as you don't make it worse.

[soba]

I won't.

[ if he dies via soccer ball he would be so mad

but he manages to get the ball and walks back over. ]

How have you been handling the week?

[sadiskick]

[ ... ]

Nicolas Brown confronted me yesterday.

[ So that was fun. ]

[soba]

[ ... hmm.

he can't say that he's surprised that someone would have, after how the trial ended. ]

What happened?

[sadiskick]

[ Yeah, she wasn't too surprised either. She just would have been fine going without doing that. She isn't afraid of confrontation. She's just a little existentially tired. ]

He pointed a sword at me and said some things. With his actual voice.

[ So you knew he was serious. ]

It ended fine.

[ No injuries from that, amazingly. And obviously, since I didn't have to update you about it sweats ]

[soba]

[ that's a mood ]

Do you think the chances of him doing something like that again are high?

[sadiskick]

[ She looks thoughtful. She doesn't know Nic well at all, but considering he confronted her but didn't actually try to cut her down then and there... ]

Medium. He could be waiting until I'm more off guard.

[soba]

[ he nods his head. he doesn't know much about nic other than what he sees during trial, so he really doesn't know what to expect there. ]

Mm. Be careful then.

[sadiskick]

[ She waves a hand. Or like a sleeve. Since her sleeves continue to cover her hands always. ]

I have no intention of dying.