[ It doesn't matter to Meltryllis if Chikai is a terrible person. What matters is if Chikai is terrible to Toi. She and her sisters could've killed each other at any time, and none of them would've cared once upon a time. It's different for Toi, though. She can tell.
She watches him for a moment before she strides into his closet to find any gloves he might own. She comes back out and shakes her sleeves back to reveal her hands and slipping his gloves over them.
She holds them both out to Toi. ]
I don't know if you could tell when we connected, but I can't feel much. I especially can't feel anything in my hands. They're my weakness.
[ They lack the sensitivity, the finesse, the delicacy and deadliness that she exacts with everything she tries and wants to do. It's a vulnerability, and it's why she covers them.
But it's also why handholds are worth more than any other form of affection for her. ]
[ but it's difficult. things always go wrong. it's easier to stay by yourself, because that way you can keep from being disappointed again and again.
he looks down at her hands. it's probably even worse now, since she isn't really solid in this form. but it's better than the alternative, which was her not being here at all. so toi reaches out, gently taking her now gloved hands in his. ]
[ Affections washes over her expression. All the airs she puts on really aren't airs because her pride in herself is unshakable, but that doesn't mean she won't have frustrations.
It doesn't mean she isn't aware of what she doesn't have. ]
I don't think it's wrong if you still love him and if you want to keep the memory of what you love of him in your heart. Your love isn't wrong.
[ people wanting to kill or hurt chikai isn't new to toi, and in some way it's toi's fault that they do. but... in this case, it's for a reason that's not motivated for something bad.
he isn't sure how he feels about that. toi decides that he doesn't want them to meet either. because for as bad as it has been, he doesn't want to his brother to get hurt. ]
It'll be okay. Everything that's been happening here has been a distraction from that, at least.
[ he can't call it a good distraction because murdergames fucking suck but
Servants are summoned. Usually, humans need a catalyst, something that represents that myth or legend. A piece of the Round Table for Gawain or Tristan, a necklace given to his wife for Ramesses II, something like that.
[ She's not that quite that typical, so she doesn't have anything that will guarantee her summoning. ]
But the things that you know about me, that you think represent me.... that will help. I'll answer you.
[ he remembers people talking about trying to make sure everyone might still be able to see, or at least talk, to each other when this is over. toi always brushed the topic off when it came up, since he never considered it an option for him.
this is the first time he actually considers it. ]
I'll try. I'll try not to be a kappa when it happens.
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She watches him for a moment before she strides into his closet to find any gloves he might own. She comes back out and shakes her sleeves back to reveal her hands and slipping his gloves over them.
She holds them both out to Toi. ]
I don't know if you could tell when we connected, but I can't feel much. I especially can't feel anything in my hands. They're my weakness.
[ They lack the sensitivity, the finesse, the delicacy and deadliness that she exacts with everything she tries and wants to do. It's a vulnerability, and it's why she covers them.
But it's also why handholds are worth more than any other form of affection for her. ]
But I want to connect with them.
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[ but it's difficult. things always go wrong. it's easier to stay by yourself, because that way you can keep from being disappointed again and again.
he looks down at her hands. it's probably even worse now, since she isn't really solid in this form. but it's better than the alternative, which was her not being here at all. so toi reaches out, gently taking her now gloved hands in his. ]
Doesn't feel very weak.
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It doesn't mean she isn't aware of what she doesn't have. ]
I don't think it's wrong if you still love him and if you want to keep the memory of what you love of him in your heart. Your love isn't wrong.
[ But he should think of himself. ]
It would be best if I never meet him.
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[ people wanting to kill or hurt chikai isn't new to toi, and in some way it's toi's fault that they do. but... in this case, it's for a reason that's not motivated for something bad.
he isn't sure how he feels about that. toi decides that he doesn't want them to meet either. because for as bad as it has been, he doesn't want to his brother to get hurt. ]
It'll be okay. Everything that's been happening here has been a distraction from that, at least.
[ he can't call it a good distraction because murdergames fucking suck but
he has less time to be sad about it. ]
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If you ever want to see me again after this, I gave you clues.
[ In her letters that are terrible to read. ]
Here's another one: I'm made with the powers of three goddesses. Artemis, Saraswati, Leviathan.
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but he squeezes back, softly. even if she can't feel it she should at least be able to tell it's what he's doing. ]
Artemis is the Greek one, right? And Leviathan is from the sea...
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She can tell. She can see, and it's the gesture that matters. Her expression softens. ]
Yeah. Saraswati is Hindu. That's why revealing my name doesn't matter. It's those three deities that tell people what I can do.
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he knows it means a lot, that she's telling him this. ]
Knowing this can help me see you?
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[ She's not that quite that typical, so she doesn't have anything that will guarantee her summoning. ]
But the things that you know about me, that you think represent me.... that will help. I'll answer you.
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this is the first time he actually considers it. ]
I'll try. I'll try not to be a kappa when it happens.
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You are so unsightly as a kappa. Get your wish, but if you can't, I'll help.
[ She assumes if he's still a kappa, that means he still has to collect those dishes. ]