STAND BY ME ONEGAIIII (toi catchall)

[sadiskick]

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[sadiskick]

[ If he were a normal teenager, he wouldn't be too far off. ]

No, it's not quite that.

[ ... ]

Are you sure you want to understand?

[ She's not used to humans wanting to understand her. ]

[soba]

I wouldn't ask if I didn't.

[ that's honest, at least. toi tries to avoid anything he doesn't care about. ]

[sadiskick]

[ She sighs. How does she want to explain this, if at all? ]

Where I'm from, certain spirits are recorded in a place out of space and out of time. They can be summoned by magic. When they're summoned, it's like a new life each time. Sometimes, you can have memories of previous times you've been summoned, and other times, you can't.

[ It just depends. ]

[soba]

[ like different versions of the same person? he tries to imagine what it's like that one day there might be another you out there who doesn't remember anything that you did.

it gives him a pause when he doesn't entirely hate the idea. ]

So, if something happened to you... you could come back, but it might not be you anymore?

[sadiskick]

[ She nods. ]

If I die, I still die. Being summoned again... I won't be the same existence. What previously made me able to be here would be gone. Every new summoning is... like a spiritual clone.

[ Reincarnation isn't completely wrong, but it's also not quite right either.

Three's no perfect metaphor or analogy she can make, nothing she thinks is good enough to give to him. It's odd enough that she cares enough to want to tell him, but... ]

[soba]

[ he can't say he gets it entirely, but... he might understand the gist of it, at least.

considering how proud she is, and how she had said she just wants to be herself, meltryllis might not be too happy about something like that, he thinks. ]

Well... I guess we'll have to make sure you don't die then.

[ here, anyway. there's not much he can do after they escape. ]

[sadiskick]

[ She's fine with it. She shouldn't have been able to be summoned again, if not for someone's cheating. She saw and experienced happiness once, and it was enough. It was more than enough.

His words makes her expression soften. ]

... You're strange.

[ There's no bite to that. There's no edge to it at all. ]

[soba]

There's definitely stranger.

[ missile is like

right there ]

[sadiskick]

... Not like that.

[ She sighs and looks away. ]

I find it harder and harder to distrust you.

[soba]

[ ... it reminds him of someone, and he tries to shake that thought away. ]

I'll try my best.

[ trust is something that can be easily broken over reasons someone might not think is a big deal. so he can't promise he might never do something she'd hate, but ]

And I'll do everything I can to make sure we both get out of here.

[ it's not a promise of something definite, but it's more than he can give to someone else. ]

[sadiskick]

[ She opens her mouth, as if to try to say something, but nothing comes out. Her hands are covered by her too long sleeves, but they clench into fists.

She still can't look at him. ]

... For a human, you're not terrible.

[soba]

[ there's a slight smile, but it smooths over. ]

... thanks.

[ he can't get offended on humanity's behalf since, honestly, he thinks they're all pretty terrible. ]

[sadiskick]

[ ...

Meltryllis is terrible in her own right, too, but tonight, she doesn't want to fully be. ]

Your profile says you're a kappa.

[soba]

Oh... yeah...

[ it does say that ]

Uh. Not right now.

[sadiskick]

Explain.

[ what does that mean

give me the sarazanmai lore ]

[soba]

It's going to sound really stupid.

[ he has never actually had to explain this to anyone so he is

trying to figure out how ]

Basically... one day, this kid and I accidentally pissed of a kappa, and he made it so that we can turn into kappa, too. And we were helping him to collect these things called Dishes of Hope. If we collected five of them, we'd get a wish granted.

[sadiskick]

I've heard stupider things.

[ Unfortunately or maybe fortunately for Toi, Fate/ is full of stupid bullshit.

So she believes him easily and doesn't think any of it as strange. ]

What was your wish?

[soba]

[ admittedly, toi left out the really stupid parts because he refuses to explain the butt stuff ]

My wish... to help my brother.

[sadiskick]

[ ... He really is kind under there, isn't he? ]

Are you close to collecting five?

[soba]

... no.

[ he frowns. ]

We were close, but the dishes we collected got stolen. So it's back down to one.

[sadiskick]

Who stole them from you? Do you know?

[ does she have to not think about whether she can cross dimensions

not that she wants to do anything, of course. ]

[soba]

I was collecting them with two guys. One of them got jealous and didn't want to use them for my wish, so he stole and hid the dishes we collected.

I don't know what happened after that. By that point I had to leave with my brother.

[sadiskick]

[ She frowns. She really doesn't like that. ]

I don't like the sound of him. [ He sounds like any other human. Petty and selfish. ]

You can't collect more dishes by yourself?

[soba]

[ he shakes his head. ]

We can only collect them in specific circumstances, and we don't know when those happen. So the time limit was until my brother had to leave the city.

[sadiskick]

Would threatening that petty jealous guy help?

[ She's just wondering. ]